I knew this day was going to come…it was inevitable, but I did not know how hard it was going to be. I had tried not to think about it, as every time the thought crossed my mind it made me sick to my stomach and tears to my eyes, but as the time drew near I was dreading it more and more. We had found daycare early on in my pregnancy, as we knew I would be going back to work. But at the time we were looking I didn’t register the fact that I’d be dropping Annabelle off with someone else. UGH. The day came and it was the WORST day of my life. I really didn’t know if I was going to be able to make it out the door. My first day back was a Tuesday, which Annabelle goes to the Nielsen’s. I had Andy take her since I couldn’t bear the thought of saying goodbye to her. Sharon texted me updates throughout the day, so it was nice being able to hear everything about her day and get a picture here and there. Definitely helped make the day go by!
I spent most of Monday in bed with her just looking at her and crying. I think I was slightly depressed. It was definitely one of the most low moments in my life. I survived Tuesday and got through the first week back. Everyone at work was very welcoming and had snacks, candy, flowers awaiting my arrival. It still is not easy nor is it better, but it’s becoming more normal. I know she is in good hands and that is all that matters. It gives me a completely different perspective on life, work and makes me realize how incredibly awesome the time I have with her is. I cannot get to this precious face fast enough after work!
The time I had off and got to spend with Annabelle was so amazing. Every day was more of a blessing and I loved being with her 24/7. Maybe one of these days I’ll be able to spend 24/7 with her again J Although at that point she probably won’t want to hang out with me!!
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